there are people whom I have met and wished I could go back in | Lifeless 🥀

there are people whom I have met and wished I could go back in time and erase all parts that I spent knowing them , loving them, hurting because of them and hating myself for giving them the most delicate parts of myself because I thought they'd appreciate my raw feelings . then there's you , you make me feel seen even in a world that's blurry . you make me feel heard even when I know I'm silent and I don't know if you know this but loving you has made me love life . for the first time in a long time, my lungs breathe in joy , for the first time in a long time I have felt peace even when I know I have a thousand problems to tackle . you make me feel like love is so easy , you make me feel things that I have never felt before and damn , I must admit that alongside the feeling of ecstasy , there's always that one feeling that looms over . that little voice that tells me that one day you'll leave and it's going to hurt like crazy to sit down and reminisce about the times you made me laugh, the times we'd sit and enjoy the silence between us . part of me knows that I'll always heal because that's what I have been doing my whole life, but a big part of me will always be hurting because meeting you has to be the best thing that has ever happened to me . you are like the first ray of sunshine to touch the ground after long winter nights . you're like rain when the ground is cracking with thirst . you're my peace when the world is burning . for all the things you are, I just hope that you're not temporary .

@lifelesstory .